Saturday, February 18, 2012
Whereas so many people have the realistic insecurity that what they say to their friends, wear to school, or watch on TV may be unoriginal, I have the insecurity that my writing will not be original. I'm so afraid that what I write will not be me enough. And I realize that life has to be a remix, an entire juxtaposition of all the things we've seen and heard and lived and that all those things come together when a person starts making their own opinions - and in my case - a voice; and in this case a voice in writing. But I can't shake the feeling that there must be more to it than that. I don't want my writing voice to sound like bits and pieces of my favorite authors' voices all mashed into one; I want those different sounds to help me find my own voice as a whole. It is because of this insecurity that I am always pushed back from my writing. But day by day I am slowly pushing myself to write more. More of anything, really. As long as my fingers are moving along the keyboard and I always have a novel by my bedside, I can only trust that I'm on my way to natural, original success in my future writings.